This is my (short version) story. The hows and whys of my struggle with weight & weight loss.
I wasn’t always heavy, however, as a teenager I started gaining weight. There was no more recess in Jr/Sr High. Although I was involved in sports from 8th grade on, I wasn’t active enough to keep up with as much as I was eating. When I was in high school I weight 168 lbs. That wasn’t too heavy, but I had a bit of a belly. I played volleyball, basketball, and even ran cross country for a season. I lost 25 lbs by running.
After high school I started gaining a bit more weight. No more sports except for the times I was participating in activities with my church youth group. And then I got a car. Several years went by and I got married (the first time); I was about 180 lbs. I could still hide the weight because I always wore jeans and t-shirts, sweatshirts or over-sized shirts. About 6 months into the marriage he started abusing me. He’d slap me around, call me nasty names, feed my mind with lies. I turned to food for comfort. It didn’t help that I was 2100 miles away from home, and in a different country to boot. For 2 1/2 years I put up with it, until one day I had enough and I left.
By then I was about 280 lbs. (I was also a smoker off & on from age 18).
So I had moved back home and gotten involved in church again. Within a few months I met a really great guy. We met online and about 8 months later we met face to face. We got married and had our first child… more weight (310-320lbs). When I first got prenant with our son, I had a couple of breathing episodes and ended up in the ER. I was diagnosed with “Reactive Airways Disease” which was later diagnosed as Asthma. For the record, I quit smoking cold turkey, when I found out I was pregnant.I wanted to lose weight but was still making bad choices with food. I tried weight loss pills, shakes, exercising here and there…
nothing had permanent results.
A few years later we had another blessing. While I was pregnant with her, I was borderline gestational diabetes.I was told to cut out EVERYTHING that contained HIGH FRUCTOSE CORN SYRUP. I also had to monitor my blood sugar twice a day. I lost 25 lbs just by doing that. Anyway, after our daughter was born I was still gaining weight.
After a few years went by, I finally had enough.
June 22, 2011 I joined MyFitnessPal.com and started my fitness journey.
At the time I didn’t have a working scale so I don’t know what I weighed when I first started. But I got a new scale 2 months later–385 lbs.
Within 8 or 9 months of joining MFP I lost 75 lbs.
I didn’t change my diet. Meaning I still ate what I wanted–NO DIETING–BUT MFP helps you watch your calorie intake and monitor your exercises (calories burned). After about a year or year and a half I got sick. I don’t know if it was a cold or the flu, but the entire family was sick for 6 weeks straight. My husband, who brought it home, was sick for 8 weeks.
Anyway due to being sick, it was harder for me (remember I’m asthmatic) to breathe, so exercising was out of the question. They say it takes 21 days for things become habit, so even after I was well again, I still wasn’t exercising. I was, however, logging my calorie intake though. For awhile I was doing well, but then I fell back into some old bad habits and was over eating. I ended up gaining back about 40 lbs.
November 2013 –I decided it’s time to get myself back in control of things. And in December I renewed my commitment for 2014. I was going to work on becoming a happier, healthier me.
I still struggle from time to time with calories and getting up off my butt to exercise. They don’t call it “The battle of the bulge” for nothing.
It truly IS a battle. It’s a battle of the mind and also, FAT is STUBBORN. But I WON’T give up. EVER!
That’s my [incomplete] story. But I also want to let you know that even though I’m still struggling, I am here to help encourage and support you in yours. I’ve got your back. WE CAN DO IT!!!! =)
You can follow me in my journey here on my blog, and on twitter & instagram (@WLEncouragemnt).
If you’re struggling to lose weight, I have a support group on facebook here. I love encouraging & helping others & would be happy to be a part of your support system.
God bless you and thanks for reading!