[NaBloPoMo 2014] Day 11 — Worry

Worry

If you could permanently get rid of one worry, what would it be?

I don’t worry as much as I used to. I do have concerns which I always bring before the Lord in prayer.

If I could get rid of my biggest concern it would be: Financial Burdens.

No, I’m not talking about being rich so don’t even go there.

My family would be debt-free, we would always have [enough] money to pay all of our bills on time, enough for necessities and maybe a few wants. It would be nice to live comfortably with a bit of added cushioning.

Daily Prompt: Those Dishes Won’t Do Themselves (Unfortunately)

What’s the household task you most dislike doing? Why do you think that is — is it the task itself, or something more?

DISHES!!!!!! I cannot stand washing dishes.
I had to do them A LOT while growing up. I didn’t mind them so much then. I didn’t necessarily enjoy it, but they had to be done.

Butttt… after I met my husband… we were staying with his parents for a time. While there that seemed to become my
duty. I can understand wanting help around the house by persons that live there. But griping & complaining instead of asking or suggesting what they would like help with is rather rude.

To this day I hate having to do dishes. They get piled up until either hubby or myself get sick of the overflowing sink. And even though hubby helps, dishes aren’t his forte, and I end up rewashing some. UGH!
Did I mention I hate washing dishes?

Daily Prompt: Happy Endings

Tell us about something you’ve tried to quit. Did you go cold turkey, or for gradual change? Did it stick?

 

I tried my first cigarette when I was 10. I didn’t like it.
Something changed between then and graduating high school.

I’d been a smoker off & on since I was 18 years old. I started because my first boyfriend did it. I thought it was cool. After some time, whenever I was under pressure or a lot of stress, I would smoke. When I faced adversity I would chain smoke. After breaking off the relationship, my smoking slowed down and I stopped for awhile.

A few years later I was in a new relationship & eventually married.
Things were great… for a few months anyway. Then the abuse started.
I started smoking again. I gained weight. I hid my smoking from him, because he didn’t like it and I knew it would get me in trouble. Eventually he did find out and told me I HAD to quit. Who was he to tell me what to do?
I lied and told him I quit, but with the stress of the relationship, of course I hadn’t. It was my crutch. Eventually I was smoking about a half a pack per day.

Two and a half years later I was done with him. I continued to smoke, slightly less than half a pack per day. But it was an addiction by now. Even though I knew it was unhealthy, I didn’t want to quit. Yeah I had seen pictures and ads of what smoking does to the heart and lungs, but I didn’t care. I hated myself & didn’t care if I lived or died. And no one would care anyway if I did.

Several months later I met a guy who seemed really nice. He was a smoker like I was. We ended up getting together. I met his parents, but we didn’t get along very well. More smoking… back to half a pack per day. (We actually lived with them for awhile).
Some time later I got pregnant. Smoking and pregnancy don’t mix, so as soon as I found out I was pregnant, I quit. My husband promised me he’d quit before our son was born. He didn’t.

(Now in another state) Two and half years after our son was born, our daughter was born… still smoke free. But I was angry that my husband didn’t keep his promise.
Several months later I started smoking again, because he didn’t quit (stupid decision).

(Moved back to hubby’s home state–and the outlaws property)
I smoked for maybe a couple of years and then quit… again. The “out-laws” seemed happy about that.
A year or so went by, then we had some problems with the ‘out-laws’, and I started again. Apparently one day my MOL asked hubby why I had started smoking again. He told her flat out, “Because of people like you!” and he walked away. It was July 3, 2012 when I started again.

I made a promise to my kids, that as soon as we were in a different place, that I would quit smoking. August 19, we were in a new ‘residence’. I didn’t quit right away but I was determined to keep my promise.

The week before Thanksgiving, November 17, 2012 I had my last cigarette. I have been smoke-free for 14 1/2 months now.
I plan to stay that way, for life.

Daily Prompt: BYOB(ookworm)

Write the blurb for the book jacket of the book you’d write, if only you had the time and inclination.

 

I have no intentions of writing a book. Not unless a book of poems and short stories, written over the years, were to be published after my death. I wouldn’t really call this a blurb, but maybe it is.

My love of writing started when I was in high school; English, Literature, and Creative Writing were among my favorite classes. Now I write for enjoyment. Most of my poetry is of personal nature; stemming from life experiences, quests for love, or my view of God & Christianity.

The Mirror is Not My Friend

Daily Prompt: Mirror, Mirror

Look in the mirror. Does the person you see match the person you feel like on the inside? How much stock do you put in appearances?

 

When I look into the mirror
I don’t like what I see;
It’s an older, plumper,
version of me.

Enlarged pores, some silver hairs,
and a gut;
Not to mention
my bigger butt.

I wish people would realize
I’m more than just a body;
Is it that important
for me to be a hottie?

Don’t you see,
I’m just like you;
I feel, I love,
and I bleed too.

Haven’t you ever heard
Don’t judge a book by it’s cover?
There are many things about people,
if you really look, you can discover.

I’m trying really hard
to make a lifelong change;
By working out daily
my goal will soon be in range.

I must always remember,
no matter what others may think or say,
I am fearfully and wonderfully made
And the Lord loves me anyway.

“I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well.” Psalm 139:14 (NKJV)

” For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.” John 3:16 (NKJV)

Future [Daily Prompt]

There are 344 days remaining in the year. Describe what you’d like to be doing on day 211. (Hint: that’s July 30th.)

I would like to be moving into or settling into a new residence before the next school year. We would have more room for our family. I could get more necessary things accomplished than I can where we are now.
I’m not ungrateful for where we’ve been. Truth be told, we could really use a bigger place.

Daily Prompt: Sweet Sixteen

Write a post inspired by your sixteenth birthday.

My 16th birthday was nothing to sneeze at. It wasn’t anything like it should have been, in my mind at least. There was no party, no celebration… except for going to various Graduation Open Houses.

Part of me felt like I was forgotten about. On the other hand, at that time, my parents were struggling financially. Even so, I still shouldn’t have been left feeling the way that I did. My parents could have done a bit more, without spending a dime, to have made the day feel more special.

Daily Prompt: Singular Sensation

If you could have a guarantee that one, specific person was reading your blog, who would you want that person to be? Why? What do you want to say to them?

 

Considering my blog is a personal blog and not related to one specific subject, I would want a long time friend to read it. (No names mentioned to protect the innocent).

I moved out of state several years ago & we lost touch. I would want them to know that even though we’ve grown apart that I still care about them. They could catch up on the things that have happened and are happening in my life. I want them to know that I don’t count our friendship as dead and that it can still  grow.

We found each other on a social media site a few months ago, but we aren’t in contact with each other very often. They don’t use it very much due to their busy life, but I still think of & pray for them often.

Daily Prompt: Ripped from the Headlines

“Click over to whatever website you visit most frequently to get news. Find the third headline on the page. Make sure that headline is in your post”.

It’s not a BAD idea, however, when I went to my news sources website I was reluctant to write anything at all. Most news in this day and age is sad, depressing or shouldn’t even be considered news. And some news I’m just not into (Celebrity gossip, Movie/TV/Music Awards–those sorts of things).  Yes, it has it’s place [I guess], and it’s OK for people that are interested in those things. I’m just not into it.

Headline as per request: Surprise-Filled Globes Honors “American Hustle”, “12 Years a Slave” and TV’s “Brooklyn Nine-Nine”

Due to my lack of interest in the subject, let me end here with this: Congratulations to the winners! Best of luck next year to everyone!